Off My Chest

I used to wake up thinking
Is life worth living
Or should I just blast myself
I have someone special in my life
She took all the pain away
I now know its hard to realize
Those who left are here in spirit
Me and My girl are together probably forever
Due to a thing called destiny
Which is going to be the name of our daughter
These golden moments should freeze
So I can feel their warmth always
I have people who care about me
and the ironic thing is
they rely on me as I rely on them
Christine I let down
I bent and Broke that last straw
Now she plans to go forever
I feel this is my fault
She was never the one to blame
All I can do is keep strong
for those leaning on me
I disguise my tears in the rain
I put on a mask to hide my fears
Inside i wanna let go of the pain
by touching wrist to razor
But I had to get all that off my chest