I miss you

Every poem that I write
is dedicated to you
for the special things we did
and the hard times we went through

telling people my story
of happiness and pain
telling them how since you left
things were never the same

going from girly to goth
from colorful to black
from liking cheerfull things
to thinking they are wack

when before you saw
the sparkle in my eyes
now all you hear at night
are my silent cries

when before I used to live life
to its fullest extreme
now I'm lonely and sad
and all I do is scream

before I accepted gods decisions
and got up when I fell down
now I dont care about anything
and my smile is a frown

when before I enjoyed
each and everyday
now I sit and remember
as I watch my life fade away