You know just knowing the fact that I have someone like you just takes me breath away. I think all day everyday just making sure if you're the one I really want to be with. I think about how I never see you or talk to you but in a way it just takes all my worries away because just to know that your mine and at the end you will be mine just lets me know that I do love you but I still don't know why I don't want to give my love to you, why am I so scared? Even though I said that I never see you it still hurts. You know already that I'm confused but I'm telling you, you can somehow change my mind. And what I am trying to do is to do good in school because I am independent and I have dreams and you are one of my wishes/dreams.baby don't worry if you think you are disappointing me because it shouldn't matter because just your personality just is enough for me. but it would be nice to see you.Love u? of course I love u. I love u so much I'm scared, so much that i runaway... so much... that i risked my heart getting broken. you just don't understand how i am feeling, so bad now and maybe thats why i didn't want to go on with this relationship i feel like i have no 1 even though Ur there, its just that empty spot physically, but now I'm feeling SO bad because i already have SO much feelings for you. just imaging u walking aways from my life just brings me down.Just once i want to fall in love and not have it hurt so bad in the end. Sometimes i smile to hide the pain, sometimes i laugh to hide the sadness. sometimes i shout to let the pain out. but no matter what i do, i just cant hide the feeling of missing you.I know I'm not pretty and there so many girls who would die to go out with you so why am i the girl you want.i just wished that my heart wasn't broken to start with because it is and I'm sorry for that. its not fair for you but life isn't fair. i guess its a way u get to me?why do i bother even writing this, your just gonna have a answer of saying I'm always gonna b there and then Ur gonna realize that its gonna b hard and walk away. I hope this opens Ur mind and I'm Turing to make a great relationship happen i just want to know do u do too.
i wrote this because i was just confused and needed answers i hope this can help anyone that reads this and happy hoildays
