Promises

I did it again,
I feel for your lies.
I believed you would actually follow through with it.
But you had "better things to do".
Why am I always 2nd or 10th on your list of things to do?
I am tired of waiting around for you.
I realy belived you loved me.
I guess that was another one of your lies.
Why do you continue to hurt me?
I would give my life for you.
All your promises,
Are empty and meaningless.
I hear what you say,
But I don't give them a second thought.
I wish I could make you understand.
Make you listen to what I say...
i want to sit you down and yell at you.
Pour out my heart and soul...
I want to scream out,
"I am in love with you!!!!!!!!!!!
Why don't you love me?
Why don't you care about me like you used to?
I know you have feelings for me.
I can tell by the way you talk to me.
The way you run to me when things go wrong.
I see it when I look in your eyes...
Why are you trying to hide behind that tough facade?
The drugs and the drinking?
When inside you are crying out
And just want someone you can lean on.
You sincerely ask for my help
And i come running.
But you go and take advantage of me.
You keep taking and taking
As i give and give until there is nothing else left.
Even then, you go and find something else to take from me.
The only thing I ever wanted was for you to be honest with me.
To love and care about me..
To be with me...
And all I got were your empty promises.