You promied you wouldnt end it all

You promised you wouldn't end it all
that you would always be here to catch me as i fall
but here i am crying out my eye
all because you committed suicide
you left me here all alone
i am afraid to be home
because i am scared i will end it too
life seems so meaningless without you
theres no one here to hold me as i cry
theres no one here to tell me to hold on not to die
i feel like theres no reason for me to live
because it all goes to hell no matter what i give
i sit here slicing away
praying i wont be here to stay
the cuts wont stop and i start to smile
I'm actually happy for awhile
then i see someone walk into the room and see me
and say oh my god they got here just in time to save me
but they never realize that i don't want to be alive
i don't know how many more times that i can stive
people don't seem to care what i want anymore
just please leave me bleeding on the floor
i don't want to cry anymore
so i walk up and close the door
grab the blade and cut my wrist
dig it even deeper with a twist
you said you would be here to catch me when i fall
you promises me you wouldn't end it all