As i sit in my tub
with the ceiling up so high
th water pours down on me
as i let out my feelings and cry
my heart has been torn
so many ways
i feel as if I'm dying
SOON
maybe one of these days
my feelings are so over-whelming
my spirit is so low
i used to enjoy my private time
but now i feel so alone
my tears wont stop flowing
my heart is in so much pain
i wish i could leave
and never return to this game
but i fear that i will never escape
for i am made to sit here
until i wash away all my pain
but so many years of doing this
and the pain just won't stop
i feel like I'm going to blow a fuse
if my emotions don't stop flowing
well now my tub is over-flowing
the ceiling
makes me tired
the water makes me calm
i guess all thats left
is just to down alone
as i try to hold my breath real long
but my lungs won't fill with air
i shiver when i try to think what
it is like to be up or down there
to be in your forever slumber
is it as painful as this
or pleasant and a beautiful site
my eyes begin to water again
and my sobbing starts again
my throat is so raw
my eyes are so dry
my head is filled with so many lies
my heart is really breaking
but all i want to do is lay here
trying to slip quickly
with out any screams
or thrashing
my body is so numb
all i can heart is the faucet
the running water over-lapping the tub
What a pleasant sound it makes
dripping off the side of the tub
splashing on the floor
then i wonder What will my Friends do
am i really that important
but i have no energy left
my head it feels so heavy
i submerge myself completely
waiting for the water to flood my lungs
i choke at first
but my body is so heavy
i have no energy to sit up
but then i wake up
drenched in my own cold sweat
