Pain of my Life

Yeild shunt wander
away from life
to get lost
in such a faint breeze

craddle hope and faith
quite close
as my tears leak down
they freeze.

Anguish lost
and torture me
as I sit by your bed side

Tempting eager
little girl
only wishing to be
your bride.

Veins bleeding down
my shattered arm
stoping every thought
every fear

people pretending
to care for me
playing an act of
kind sincere.

Dove of white
preserved beauty
on such a still view
your little girl calling "daddy"
when she knows she can't see you.

A forest with a unicorn
a quiet frog on lake
dwelling on the moments past
on every true mistake.

I kiss our daughter everynight
but oh how she misses you!
her teachers tell me everyday
that they feel her life is blue.

I try to do the best I can
when your a single parent
on your own

but its hard to fight
off all the tears
when you can't smell your husbunds cologne.

Yeild shunt wander
away from life
trying to make it all alone
but if you were here with me
you'd see how much she's grown.

You'd be proud
that she's your daughter
You'd smile and hold my hand
we'd walk together as a family
just how I had planned.

But that plane crash left me heartbroken and
I just couldn't speak
and all of my body
my heart gave weak.

I stayed in my
make believe world
tunning out every key
all they saw was a widower
and they couldn't see me.

I hope our daughter finds peace
with what I'm about to do
I hope she undertsands
that I couldn't live without you.

So tonight as I take
this butcher knife
and run it along the seem
of my arm

I hope she will
not be frighten
and run away
in alarm

I'm picking up my blade now
to exam its every nook
I hope she will not hate me
all the memories I took

The blood is leaking leaking red
as I shut my teary eyes
so I get to be dead.

this knife....
this silver knife...

darling I could not cope
with the pain of my life...