My Fault

I'm missing you today, Like everyday.
I want you here, beside me.
To reassure me.
I need you more than anything now.
You're so far away from me, out of reach.
I try to scream, but i can't even speak.
The future without you looks so bleak.
Every word I say,
Everything I do,
Every tear I cry,
Is out of regret... for you.
I ruined your days,
I was free, you are locked away.
How the fcuk did i escape?
I just want to talk to you.
Ill be fine, as long as we talk.
But I want you to know,
I just want you to hold me.
Tell me it will get better.
I should be consoling you....
For all this that I've put you through.
My fault.
My fault.
I can't take this away for you.
I'm sorry.