Change

You change like the wind,
Go one way, then
Change.
You expect me to keep up,
To go along with your change,
But I am falling behind.

So many times you left me in the dust,
But did you notice?
No way.
You were too busy changing,
First this way, then that way,
Till I was too far behind.
I'm in the shadows right now,
You do this to me.
I'm stuck behind,
Trying to keep up with your change.

You change personalities
Like you change clothes
Till I don't know who you are anymore.
You're going too fast,
I'm going too slow,
You are so easily bought.

It's not my fault
You change like the seasons,
Except quicker, faster.
Not just 4 times a year.
Just try to be who you are.

You expect me to change
Like the wind in your hair,
And get mad when I'm
Too far behind.

I can't change personalities
Like you change the clothes
On your back.
It's just not as easy for me.
You change so much,
On your quest to be perfect,
But perfect's not possible for me.
I can't do this, not now.
There's just too much stress
To deal with alone.

So you beg me to change,
Give me an ultimatum.
You change again,
Not calm and sweet anymore,
You're angry and unsmiling now.
I try to apologize,
But you won't listen to me,
I'm not good enough for you now.

You see the fear in my eyes,
The hurt in my voice,
And you have changed once again.
Pretend you didn't act
Like you just did,
Gather me up in a hug.
It's unbearable,
How you change so often,
Like the gears on your car.

What first started out,
As your innocent game
To make friends and 'fit in'
Has now become a
Hell bent mission to
Be number 1.

You want to be cool,
Be popular,
But you hurt so many
On your way up.
Don't care who you kick,
You carry a knife,
Encrusted with blood,
To stab your 'friends' in the back.
Do you care anymore
For your original friends,
Or did you use us as well?
You're still my friend,
But you're changing so much.
I just can't keep up.

It's not my fault
You change like the seasons,
Except quicker, faster.
Not just 4 times a year,
Just try to be who you are.