Freewrite #2

* I decided to do a freewrite to help clear my mind......... i know its not great but please at least vote if not comment...and if you know me personally i guess you should get who this is about

Why oh why does it have to be this way?
I don't understand you, or what you have to say ...
I wrote about you many times before, and all about how i had hope for you, for us, but it never happened ...
If their were no outside forces, no other people around, then would you love me with no strings attached?...
But no,... there were other people and you did ignore me, and now look what it has come to ...
Me always in this fantasy world never knowing what true love could feel like, always crying and dying to be with you, rubbing my skin till its red and hoping you notice, seeing if you still care....
I guess you still do care...
I mean you still walk with me every day but i want more more than that...
I want more of you than you will ever know...
But i guess i have to live with what happened and why we are the way we are now....................
Or do i?