May 27, 2005

Well I finally figured it out
A little too late
My life was taken from me
My Chenelle
My midget
Was killed by a drunk driver
I don\'t care if he was under the limit
To me he was still drunk
To me he is a monster
At 58
You are never responsible enough
To drink and drive
You take a life and you must pay
But he could just walk away
Because he was under the limit
But he still killed an innocent
A friend
The best person I will ever know
My soulmate
Now I am lost
And I will never get her back
I never loved someone so much
I never will
The pain devours my heart
I just want to be with her again
I can only hope she visits me in dreams
All the lines others feed me
Upset Me
\"She\'s always with you\"
\"I\'m sorry\"
Shut up
That doesnt do anything for me
Only Chenelle could comfort and help me
But she is dead at 22
And I couldnt see it coming
It haunted me until she died
She was the feeling I was getting
The feeling that ate at me
Night after night
And I dread the next feeling I get
But all I can do is go one day to another
And hope I will find someone
To love me
At least halfway
As much as she did
And so my feeling is over
But now I live with pain
A pain that wont go away for a long time
If ever