XxThis is WhyxX

The pain runs deep in my veins
I can feel it in every breath i take
its within every step i take
this pain will never go away

Its built up over the year
while i write, the emotions slowly pour out
the memories still haunt me
Flash backs are what i fear

Its not as easy as just leaving it in the past
the last conversation still fresh in my mind
The look of anger in those beautiful blue eyes
i yelled i hate you.....

I hate you....just keeps echoing threw my mind
every morning when Brittany looks up at me
I'm reminded of that night
you have no idea how bad that hurts me

My best friend gone, the first person
i was ever able to open up to
dead...
The tears are really pouring now
at one point i wanted to take my life

But i got a baby to live for now
Responsibility comes quick weather you like it or not
when your a single parent living on your own
and me...just 16 not even out of school yet

So do you see why
I'm so scared to show my feelings
so scared to open up
or even get close to other people

**please comment would really mean a lot and I'll do the same for you**