He was my world for so long, but I do not believe I allowed him to know.
A woman stands strong to face the world. Never let them see fear. Stand up take the blows. Protect those she love even from her own pain.
What a crock of shit! It is strength by numbers and united we stand. I know now hiding from him I was hiding from myself, destroying the most precious thing of all. . . Love.
You cant fight what you do not know. You can blame society for your sins. But in the end it is just you alone and in the dark.
Take responsibility for your future. . . the past is gone. Strength is not the amount of punishment you can take from the world or yourself. That is easy, mind over matter. If you dont mind it dont matter.
You can not protect the whole world, or even change it. A cruel lesson to learn. But if you do not change the little bit around you through communication, love, kindness. You will loose even that.
So here I sit alone in the darkness of my mind hoping I can change my own little piece of the world. Bring my life back from the mouth of death. Set it on a path winding into the future. And maybe, just maybe he will find his way back to me.
