Why Go Home?

**reposted**

long years of love
comes to an end, with a forever knot
time slipped so fast
now realizing the pain in the end I have got
everyday's combat for survival
sucking each drop right from my heart

dreams of rich and fame
flying high as a foam
just fighting against my own doubts
why go home?

memories of sweet journey that I ever had
now haunting my fear so tight
will I be able to find a reason
for going home tonight?

each burning kiss that I ever made
each embrace which was not to fade
each spark that I create
was called fake

multiple identities is what they say
when I realize that I am loosing my face everyday
with no plans for future
and no care of past
I am a guy asking myself
why should i stay alive today?

long years of togetherness
comes to an end, with a forever knot
time just passing by
realizing the pain I have in the end got
everydays battle for a peaceful breath
just fighting against my own doubt
if I really meant whatever I said

excuses to live with a reason to die
messes my mind, kills my skin
leaves my hand on my head
and my eyes so dry
making me look above once again
screaming for the end to this pain

everyday realizing how bad I am
with those cruel words of yours
just exactly knowing who I am
I search for myself in that hatred land
with a same doubt in my sight
begging for a reason to survive and a reason to go home tonight

watching my funeral everyday
with those voices of wailing
as they bury me six feet under
I saw my soul sailing

sitting face to face with my soul
those red wet eyes gazed right through me
I just cant forget those words
when I was told, " I am free"

celebrated my last rites with fire
lying peacefully below earth
I reached my desire

through a whole in my coffin
I saw pretending faces around me
my loved ones whispered
"we won't let you be free"

memories of sweet journey that I ever had
now haunting my fear so tight
will I be able to find a reason
of sleeping tonight?