It's a cold night, I'm giving in
Finding a new place to begin
A note is left on a newly made bed
Written on it is everything i never said
Notes are written to all my friends
Gifts are given to them as their life mends
A candle is lit in my room
The smell of vanilla will done soon
My feet brush the fallen leaves
It's so hard when nobody believes
My wrists and body are covered in scars
My wishes never came true on these dead stars
Happiness is far beyond gone
And I'm aware that this is completely wrong
And i ask what I'm living for?
...I've lost the things i loved before...
And i have tried, SO HARD have i tried
And i thought i was OK... guess i lied
I'll miss my friends more than anything
I'll probably regret this after everything
But this life, i want a new one
I give up, I'm completely done
Without a family that actually does care
Beats you down when they aren't there
I lost my friends who helped raise me
And now I'm missing them desperately
My ex has took so much
I cringe to the thought of his touch
Alls i need is a hug or two
Alls i needed was a word on what to do
Should i stay or should i go?
In my time will i ever know?
Who am i and could i succeed?
Can i heal or will i just continue to bleed?
Maybe i just needed someone around
To just say put the gun down
These people don't know what to say
They're my age, we live only for today
They don't know what to say to me
They don't understand this clearly
The sun starts to rise over the mountain
The light shines on me like a fountain
With a cigarette in my left and a gun in my right
I couldn't sleep at all last night
And here we go...the chapter book is at the end
Nobody will know the truth, they'll have to pretend
One last breathe with one last shiver
One last thought as i pull the trigger...
*OK just to let people know, it's not a suicide note....it's just thoughts in my head that i needed to write out...*
