Do you feel my pain?
Have you seen my cry?
All the stress I've maintained.
And all you do is sigh.
Do you see the gray clouds?
Do you see any of my joy?
About me do you have many doubts?
Whether I should stay a girl or been born a boy.
Am I the least favorite child?
Do I ever cross your mind?
Do you think I'm hallucinating and wild?
Because getting to know me takes time.
Am I your idol child?
Do I bring a smile to your face?
Are you hurt because I wasn't blessed with your style?
Do you wish someone would take my place?
Are you angry because things don't go your way?
Are you mad because you feel like you're not head of the house?
There's so much I have to say.
But yet I remain quiet like a mouse.
Do I bring tears to your eyes?
Do I bring brokeness to your heart?
Through all those years of heartaches and lies.
Has torn our bond apart.
Do you love me?
Do you care?
Will you still protect me?
Or will you stop and stare?
Can I make you happy?
Can I bring the joy back into your life?
Because when I see you I see sadness?
And you don't enjoy being a mother nor a wife.
Why was I put in this family?
Why did God create me?
Did he do this just to challenge me?
Or is it because God hates me?
Why does the devil want to be my friend?
Why do I go through all of these tests?
Every time he always win.
And sometimes by God I feel that I'm not blessed.
Am I a demon child?
Am I an angel waiting to be set free?
Do you still think that I'm hallucinating and wild?
Or have you begun to understand me?
Am I dumb or bright?
Can I be strong and bold?
Can I stick it out and win the fight?
Or back down like I've been told?
Will I stay in school?
Will I drop out like the rest?
Will I start smoking and become a fool?
Or will I try hard and do my best?
Will I stay a virgin?
When will I ever have sex?
I'm so sorry Lord but my body is yearning.
And that special someone I just can't seem to catch.
Will I get pregnant at sixteen?
Will I ever know what to do?
Will I ever find the one for me?
I'm so lost and don't have a single clue.
Will I become a criminal?
Will I ever be raped?
Will my life be taken away from me in jail?
Or from this world will I escape?
There are so many questions I have to ask.
And yet there is such little time.
I don't know whether the response will be good or bad.
But they keep appearing in my mind.
Will my questions ever be answered?
Or will they remain in my thoughts?
For there are many things in life I have to concur.
Yet there's so little I've been taught.
So I'll leave you with this.
Have you discovered me now?
Hopefully I'll leave you with an open mind and the perfect bliss.
Before taking my last bow.
