Feelings To Hide

This feeling that i have
comes from deep inside,
so scared of myself with
no one in which to confide

Hurting inside and trapped
inside myself, screaming and
crying yet receiving no help
No one to talk to ive lost

all my pride, wanting to erase
all these feelings i hide. sorry
for crying i just cant hold it
in and I'm trying my best to keep

this pretend, no more food i don't
want to eat, this eating disorder
is making me weak. All of this is my
fault every last thing, I HATE who

i am i want to be free.Sorry i was
born it was a big mistake and i want
my life to crumble and quake. No one
cares for me, i am all alone i was left

in this world with nothing to own.
Abuse me with your words throw hateful
motions my way, it hurts really bad and
i don't want to stay,

look a littler closer, see those tears
pouring down my face? those are because
i want out of this place. Listen a little closer hear those screams? Those

are a result of my suicidal dreams.