Moved on

Alone i sit thinking of you
and of all the things we went through
we were close friends from the start
and i always kept you close to my heart
we would talk everyday
i even dreamt of a life with you someday
then problems began to appear
i wanted to whisper in your ear
the things that i thought and felt were real
how i felt our relationship was no longer equal
but i was afraid of what you would think
and i didnt want to fall out of sync
so i hid my true feelings where you couldn't find
and acted as though i didnt mind
but finally i just couldn't take it anymore
i realized that our friendship could not be restored
so instead of attempting to fix it someway
i decided to try and cut it away
that didn't work i felt worse than before
and my wrists were covered with cuts, scars and more
you discovered my difficulty
and tried to help me
but it was too late
all anyone could do was wait
to see if my problem would disappear on its own
see if i could solve it all alone
i eventually did
to the point where i no longer felt the need
to cause self harm
to my wrists or to my arm
over things that i could not change
or things that couldn't be rearranged
i have moved on
and accepted the fact that you are gone
i have movied on without you
you helped me to grow
and realize how important to show
how you really feel inside
no matter how great you pride
for burying it deep within
can eventually lead to cuts in your skin.