Two Perspectives

"Suicide Note" by Danielle
Written September 23, 2004

My heart is dark and cold
With secrets that I hold
And my life is just a mess
But my feelings I can't confess
I'm falling apart each day
No longer do I want to stay
I'm haunted by the knife
Tempting to take my life
Steph, the one I love
I'm watching from above
Know that I'm always in your heart
Nothing can tear us apart
Tina, my best friend
Always there until the end
Though I'm setting myself free
Promise to never follow me
Vaness, my other half
You always made me laugh
But now I must go away
But promise me you'll stay
I'm sorry I couldn't be strong
But I've held on for way too long
I'm sorry I had to end it this way
But I can no longer stay

"Reaction To Your Suicide" by Tina (me)

You said you couldn't stay
Now, I don't have much to say
Except you left us here to guess
What really made your life a mess
You had me as a friend
"There until the end"
You know you could have depended on me
Instead of setting your miserable life free
I guess it's right to blame you
For the things you put everyone through
Like making your parents cry
And making me want to die
But forget about how I feel
I'm still trying to heal
But think about those who loved you
Like Stephanie, and Vanessa too
You told them not to follow
But the pain is such they can't swallow
So they too took their life
The same way as you, with their knife
And I also attempted suicide
I was dreaming to lay dead by your side
I tried so hard to join you
But I'm still here, no matter what I do
Stephanie and Vanessa were all that I had
Without them here it's twice as bad
So tell me Danny, what do I live for?
It can't go back to how it was before
I'm left here to suffer without a best friend
I'm left here to die with a heart that won't mend
Three best friends just gave in to the knife
Took their lives to end all their strife
But Steph and Vaness died because of you
They just followed the stupid shit you do
But who am I to say because I do the same
So maybe I too should take the blame
I should punish myself and use my blood-stained knife
But if I die it'll be the happiest day of my life

*This is a collaboration of two poems... one written by my best friend Danielle, written right before she killed herself. The other is written by me, and it's my reaction towards her suicide note*

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