My dad abuses me
My mum is dead
What's a girl meant to do
After everything that's been said
When I am with my friends
There is nothing but laughter
But when i'm at home its yelling and abuse
One day after the other
I get told I'm fat and ugly
That I have no friends
With put downs like these
How is a girl suppose to defend
Being told I ruin lives
Make my friends miserable and depressed
Really gets to me
What can you expect from a girl but be distracted and stressed
I try not to let everything distract me
Wipe away all my tears
Hide my pain, put on a smile
Keep inside all my fears
But this is so hard to do
When you are pushed over the edge
You can't hold it in
You just want to jump of a cliff ledge
I just want to die
But I know ill be missed
By so many people
There is a huge list
But sometimes you feel
That your only option is to die
After all of those years
Knowing only how to cry
I know if I do it
I will cause so much pain
But what's a girl meant to do
But attack her main vein
There are so many things
Racing through my head
Everything that's ever been done
Everything that's been said
I can no longer think
It's clogging up my brain
All I am is depressed
And it's driving me insane
I don't know what to think
I don't know what to do
My common sense is long gone
I don't know who is who
I don't know whose my enemy
I don't know whose my friend
I don't know who I can't trust
And who I can depend
I am so confused
I don't know anything anymore
Everything gets made worse
By f.u.c.k.i.n.g. fat w.h.o.r.e Ms Shaw
What makes me like this you ask?
Well even I don't entirely know
It's hard to explain
But I'm going to give it a go
The one I love
Loves another
Not only that
But the death of my mother
My dad hits me
Gets things in my head
Tells me he wants me gone
That nobody would care if I were dead
My sister is against me
I have no one who cares
I pray to be happy
But they are only a few dumb prayers
They won't ever come true
I'm stuck with this dumb life
What's a girl meant to do
When her best friend is a knife
But this girl made a promise
Which she intends to keep
No matter how many tears I cry
No matter how many hours of lost sleep
Because that girl means the world to me
I am not going to lie
I never want to hurt her
And wont, no matter how many tears I cry
One thing I now know for sure
It is crystal clear
That I never want to lose her
That is my one true fear
So no matter how much I hate my life
And just want to die
No matter how much pain I'm in
No matter how many tears I cry
I will keep living this life
Try each and everyday
To put on that fake smile
And try and ignore the things they say
I have come to realize its all worth it
Just to see her smile
That will always encourage me
To go that extra mile
Because everyday I see her
Every moment I spend gazing into her eyes
There is no more fake happiness
No longer are there any lies
It is true happiness
It's what I feel inside
I remember how much I love her
And forget all the times I've cried
When I am around her
I am my one true self
I can finally relax at last
All my pain is put back on the shelf
That is the real me
It is not the fake
The girl they have grown to love
But when that girl is depressed it's too much for them to take
When I am depressed
I see it in her eyes
She doesn't like seeing me like this
It makes her sad to hear my cries
But she is still there for me
I really don't know why
Who would want to be around a girl
Who only knows how to cry?
I am still so very confused
But I want to return the favour
Is she one that loves me?
Or is she just my hater?
I really don't know anymore
But ill take a guess
I don't know how my mind
Ever got into this great, huge mess
It's no use. I still don't know anything
Except for these things two
I love her with all my heart
And she has always helped me through
So ill wipe my tears away
I'll keep inside my pain
I'll put on that fake smile
And I won't destroy my vein
Ill do all of this for the rest of my life
And it's all worth it
Just for that moment of happiness each day
It's all for one person and id just like to say
Its all for you Brittney...
