Cold Realization

I wrote this a while ago 9/13/05

i have been doing so good
and resisting the urge
not only resisting
but barely having it

i know its just a phase
it happens so often
but yet still, i embrace it
for it only last so long

after a big success
i feel so refilled
everything is so content
i myself and so happy

but then everything comes back
its like rushing over a water fall
hitting the bottom
and coming to a cold realization

i still need the blade

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