Razor blade.. thank you..

Dear razor blade..

i cant take this anymore
i have to use you
you have no idea
what I'm going threw

just the thoughts of him
and the mad look in his eyes
the way he beats me
and told me he wished i died

how he threatened to slit my throat
if i made a sound
while he did what he pleased
as i layed there naked on the ground

touching me in places
how much pain he left me in
and now i cant tell a soul
I'm living my daddy's sin

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razor blade, oh razor blade!..
Ive lost all my friends
i need someone to stay by my side
i know you'll be there till the end

they all think I'm a sl.ut
because they heard what went on
that night i was at a party
and everything went wrong

that boy took me into the woods
and told me to take of my shirt
believe me i refused
but then he unbuttoned my skirt

slapping me in the face
duck taping my mouth shut
touching me until i gave in
i swearer i am no sl.ut

but why did he pick this girl
out of all the fishes in the sea
why did he have to rape me
i don't even no the name of the boy who took my virginity

and he leaves like I'm nothing
like everyone else in the world
I'm just a freaking mistake
another emo girl

lost inside the darkness
and its become to thick to find my way home
so your all that i can turn to
i don't like being a lone

so please just help me screw this up
let me cut my veins
I'm sick and tired of hurting so bad
I'm sick of feeling all this pain

I'm sick of always getting a B
when i should have gotten an A
I'm never good enough for people
I'm never again going to be okay

ill always feel sadness overcoming me
and someone will over power me
i hate how ill never be a cheerful girl
and the bright side ill never see

I hate myself razor blade
Your the only way i know to die
let me drown in all my blood
and all the tears Ive cried..

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now its time to pick you up
and no longer feel this hurt
i start with something minor
but then turn to something worse

slicing down my death line
i feel the pain escaping me
once again i feel like i did
i feel like I'm now free
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i now am laying on the tiles
blood soaking in my hair
time is going by so slow
and I'm sure that no one cares

i feel my breath beginning to gasp
i cant catch any air
i guess Ive always been right
for 5 hours no one has known I'm not here

my dead eyes are open and now I'm free
finally Ive been waiting to die for so long
thank you razor blade
i new i couldn't ever be so bold and strong.