Needed secrets

The secrets I held from you
Felt like something I had to do
But when you felt nothing in your face
Immediately I knew my rightful place.

My dreams was taken by a pill
I'm still thinking about it still
I know I should stop by now
But it hurts I don't know how.

But instead of being constantly blue
I think of the things I can now do
That I couldn't do if it stayed
Thinking of all the chaos it would have made.

The next time I'll have one
It won't be made wrong
I'll give it the happiness the other could have had
Double the happiness with a better dad.