Those Words

I am sobbing
i have no life
i have no you
what can i do

she has what i want
she's everything I'm not

he kissed her like he never kissed me
he held her the opposite of how held me
he did what i was waiting for
he said what i wanted to hear

but he said it to her
he told her what i want him to tell me
he did what Ive been beating myself up over
but he did it to her

he said those words he's never said
not to his best friend
not to his mom
not to his dad
he refuses to say it
refuses to admit it
he refuses feel it

he told her he loved her
the words i wish he would say to me
he has finally let free