Hey dont be so studid! please dont do anything silly..who is truely happy?? everyone is sad and fake..just remember that you will be putting others in so much pain..i know how youre feeling and have been there before but trust me..suicide is not the answer and there must be something worth living for or you wouldnt be waiting until your birthday, so think about what youre ganna do and ask yourself if it is really what you want caz there will be no turning back..sorry this is long but just hope your ok...