LoSt CrUsH

You stare at me in class
and think i don't see your eyes,
do you really have a crush?
or are the rumors all lies?

Deep down in my heart,
i want them all to be true,
because for a long time now,
I've had feelings for you.

I wasn't gonna say anything
for i thought it was all wrong,
and i didn't wanna crush my dreams
that I've had for so long.

you came up to me one day
and all you said was Hi
i felt like i couldn't breathe
and i was about to die.

my friends pulled me away
just in the knick of time
and once they started talking
i felt like i was fine.

that was the first time
i had ever felt like that,
i smiled at you one last time
and i couldn't believe it-you smiled back!

I kept thinking about
how i felt that way
and hoping you would come talk to me,
the very next day

well my wish came true,
you talked to me,
but your friends were laughing and i could finally see,
that all of this was a joke on me

now i go running
down the jammed hallways
wishing somebody would shoot me
to take the pain away

i ran all the way to my house
just to be alone
i even locked the doors
and unplugged the phone

I've never done this before
and I'm not sure what to do,
but i am determined to cut myself,
and let it bleed for you

Oops...i cut too deep
and now I'm starting to cry,
i know i shouldn't of done this,
and now for you, I'm going to die.