I loved you,
I admit it.
You were always
Smiling.
And laughing.
But I wasn't.
I never smiled,
And never laughed.
Blacked my tears,
Smudged my eyes.
You were happy, and didn't
Understand me.
No one did.
No one understood.
You tried to,
I tried to explain.
But you still didn't know.
You still didn't know the truth of this life.
The meaning of this life.
So I kept you as long as I could.
Kept you smiling,
Kept you happy,
And stored all of our times together
Inside,
To forever stay.
Till one day,
You couldn't stand it.
And I knew I couldn't stop you.
So I stared at your back,
As you walked away.
Now you love her.
You smile and laugh,
And it's perfect.
I'm just sad I couldn't keep you.
And lonely.
The scars run deep,
Inside and out.
I lay awake at night,
And remember you.
And I fall asleep seeing your face.
But it's not enough.
It's never enough.
Will it ever be enough
For either of us?
