Lost

Laying here
Feeling so lifeless
Asking myself so many questions
Will this all go away?
Feeling the cold air run against me
I feel tears starting to build
But I know that I must never show
Show everything that has been hiding
Closing my eyes
Trying to hold everything together
Just one more day
Thoughts running around
I don’t know what to do anymore
Opening my eyes I see nothing is the same n e more
I am not where I once was
And I am no longer the person I was
I am no longer who I thought was I
I have formed into a new person
Living a fake life
I have learned to live with a fake smile
An I have learned that no love last forever
All love will die a slow painful death
And leave you feeling so lost
And hopeless
Kneeling to the ground
I can do nothing but shed the tears
Of all the pain I have gone threw
Feeling my heart
An the pain that has grown
I am scared what the outcome might be
Feeling a force pull my arms out
Kneeling there with my head in shame
Feeling tiny little cuts
Soon a puddle start to form
A puddle I start to see my reflection in
Seeing a red figure of me
An starting to feel
Light headed
I lay down feeling the warm liquid
Laying there praying for hope
I start to feel at peace
An I took one good look around
Knowing that this was my last breath
Closing my eyes