You look at me, and wonder why i dont try, but the truth is i do try..baby i try harder than you will ever know, to fight these thoughts, for these fears i didnt even know i had. baby its so not like me to break promises, but tonite i have an apointment with the devil. i cannot be late. the knife is staring me down seducing me to use it. i am an adict. it whispers to me \"use me use me\" and baby even wen i sleep. the best dreams ive had, are the ones ive died. ive thought about this for years, and its what i need. wut i really need is you. and i no u need me 2. but this is just something i have to do. i love you baby, please forgive me. do not cry baby, i will always love u. im sorry.
