How much longer?

How much longer am i gonna cry,
cry myself to sleep,
sleep in which I'm running away,
from all of the fears of the day?

how much longer do i have to know,
that you have left this world forever,
how much longer will i hurt,
hurt because your not here to make it better?

I'm hurting so much,
a stabbing pain in my heart,
stabbing me everyday,
causing me more pain.

why do i live,
while you lay underground,
surrounded by beasties,
trying to eat you inside out.

why do i have to deal with so much pain,
where have you gone,
why have you left me,
i loved you so much but you still forgot me.

how much longer,
will i have to shed these tears,
these diamonds,
as you called them?

I'm filled with so much pain,
bottled up over the years,
i can't tell anyone how i feel,
because i don't know any better than them.

you left this world,
for a better place they say,
but you left me alone,
one this cruel, painful place.

the harshest places,
here on earth,
the most beautiful paradise,
heaven on earth.

i had that heaven when you where alive,
but when you left this world,
i was thrown to harsh places,
to deserts, mountains and ice caps.

i miss you so much,
it hurt like hell!

:'(