The only one who sees

Does my heart not feel love
Because its been taken by the past
Its swept it all away in the wind
Am i still alive; Forever do i ask

I cut myself deep
To check the blood is in my veins
Because i cant feel the freedom
And the soul inside that remains

The tears that run out my eyes
Are tired and cold of wear
Ive cried so many; No more left
But some how more are still there

My heart is shattered; In hopes
That i dreamed of for so long
But everything just breaks
A full heart no longer belongs

My wrist is slashed to the edge
From all the times i hate within
The stories of why and who
I couldnt even begin

My note pads full of misery
They remind me of what i need
They lie on my bedroom floor
All eyes to see; But none to read

Smashed mirrors around me
Because i hate to see the real
Just looking at what i am
Fills me with doubt; Hate is feel

I dont want to be all this
But this is who i am; Me
I close my eyes and look away
Because im the only one who sees