You'll Never Know

Why couldn't you've held my hand through it all

You sat back and watched me fall

Telling yourself tomorrow would bring a new day

But you'll never know what I had wished to say

I held it in and closed my lips

Slowly letting the tears slip

You won't see the pain behind the mask

Or how this love won't last

How can you walk with her and help her through

When with me you pretend you never knew

But you won't hear these words or see these tears

And you'll never know my obsessive fears

or how I can't seem to keep my head above this mess

I don't think I will ever pass your test

You claim your love for me is so deep

But when I hurt you aren't there to stop the blood that seeps

You missed it all and you can never have that back

Because of your footsteps there is so much I lack

But I will be better because of you

And you will never see these signs I drew

Or hear the words I wished to speak

All because of him a smile now paints my cheek

You'll never know how he made me whole

Or how my heart he stole

You'll never see the real me

The one that has become totally free

This is for my mom who never seems content with helping me but always other people. She is numb to my world maybe if she pretends it is not there then she can be okay.

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