Sitting here
alone in the dark
i fall asleep
for this life is boring
i fall and fall into my dreams
into a four-way stop
with me in the center
and each stop
has a huge, massive truck sitting there
waiting for me
each with their engines roaring like a lion
and i stand daze at each driver
when ever i can bring myself to looking at them
they all smile
like they love to see me in confusion
at one stop i see my parents
they are ready to put me down
yell and scream at me if i speak a word
they are disgusted of who i am
and what i am
they hate me
they can\'t stand me
so they hurt me
at another stop i see all my friends
jamie, chris, sara, amanda, brittney, scott, meranda, lizz
and some others that i can\'t see but i know they\'re there
and with them all sitting there
they laugh in chorus
each one of them know something different
and they laugh
and they hate me
at another stop
i one person and one person only
our relationship is so many things
easy, hard, simple, complex,
wonderful, horrible, dumb, smart,
happy, sad, great, bad
and to think this is just one person
their name remains secret
and i wish i could yell it
from the top of my lungs to the bottom of my soul
i wish it would be what i see with real couples
what i see in movies
and what i see on TV
yet its not
and i think
if i compare
They have the biggest truck
and i laugh at the site of the last truck
though it may seem small
but i know its very powerful
yet not as big as the one before
i hate this person
i am disgusted with him
i wish he were dead
he is so unattractive
so ugly
and such a waste of oxygen
he is no one
he is unworthy of love
or being liked
i see me
Now as wake up
from this horror of a dream
i realize all of this is true
and i now watch the tears roll down my face
i know but one thing
i need to get out of the way of the trucks
and try to get into one
