Pain I Hide

Deep inside,
Theres a pain I hide,
From the rest of the world.

No one I have told,
Friends,
family,
partners.

All I've kept them from
my deepest regrets,
darkest fears and
my worst upsets.

Too much no one knows
of what I hide,
and the things Ive tried,
to end it all
I will longer stand as tall.

My life Ive bleed
Hoping for the time
I bleed too much,
Cause my life seems like a crime
something I didn't not want
nor deserved,

But no-one I can blame
for my life's faults
There all the same
It was only ever me to blame

And the times I was down
face set in a frown,
the times when I wanted to end my life
I couldn't do it.

Knife in hand
I always halted
The tears came and I was crying
Only because after everything was said and done
I was still afraid of dying...