What shall I do?

Should I cry?
Should I smile?
Should I try?
Or just quit for a while?
I want him here,
Right by my side.
To catch my tears,
And love provide.
I'm so confused,
What shall I do?
My heart had been abused.
If i cry,
will the pain go away?
If i die,
What will they say?
Should i just forget?
Just pretend the pain is not here?
Will I regret,
Or will it heel?
I miss the kisses
And the hugs
I miss the feeling
Of True Love.