God's Greatest Sin

Looking up to the sky
I hear myself ask why
Questioning the heavens
Someone to answer my cries

There has to be
Some kind of explanation
Why the world could be so cruel
Understand the situation

I have tried a million times
To forget that man
To look past the hurt
And look for God's master plan

But ever since that night
My life changed somehow
I no longer smile at all
I live the moment, I live the now

Every second that passes
I grow colder within
Because I remember that night
When God committed a sin

Yes I said God
For he could have stopped it all
He could have showed the guy
Another door to which he could crawl

But instead he knocked on mines
And I stupidly opened the door
God was watching from above
As I remember even more

He said he was dad's friend
How he knew that dad wasn't there
I never could figure that out
How he just assumed he wasn't here

But he asked to wait
And I said OK
I'll regret my kindness
For the rest of my days

I let him come in the house
I was a child, only 11
I didn't know any better
And God watched from the heavens

As he closed the door behind me
Asked if I was alone
My dad had gone to aunties
Due soon to come back home

I told him yes
Again I was just a kid
I never could have imagine
What to me he did

He slapped me across the face
And I fell to the floor
After that it's kind of fussy
I don't remember much more

I was in and out
And I could hear myself crying
He was hurting me so bad
I felt like I was dying

I was being ripped apart
Oh how it hurt, so bad
God just watched
When he was all I had

Blood was everywhere
I could smell the alcohol
He was drunk and dirty
He dragged me across the hall

His hands where rough
There was no kindness in his touch
I cried and fell into darkness
Again I don't remember much

Just a smell, a taste of blood
How painful it all was
I remember me praying
That someone would pass

But no one came
God didn't help at all
He let the man lick my skin
Watched my tears one by one fall

He let him invade my body
He let him touch me everywhere
That's why now I ask the skies
If God really cares

Why should a child
Supposely God's perfection
Have to hurt in a way
Too great for the imagination

So now 20, I lay under the stars
And I cry my last tears
I learn from God and commit a sin
Like he did that past year

I release my soul into the skies
I commit my sin to stop others
For when someone needs my help
I wont look away like our father

I take the blade in my hand
And I slice my scarred skin
My soul set free from the hurt
That came from God's great sin

NOT A TRUE STORY!!!!