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by XxBloodyTearsxX Nov 12, 2005 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
I know its long but I would really appreciate it if you read.. I went to a party Someone gave me a drink She told me not to take it But I didn't even think I never knew what was coming Something I expected the least I never would have guessed What would have happened next I kept getting drink after drink Until I couldn't even walk He offered to help me out So I got into his car He took me to an abandoned house And told me everything was alright I got a little spooked But I still went inside He took me to a bed And told me to lay down I said "No I wanna go" But he told me not to make a sound He pinned me down And wouldn't let go I started to scream Just wishing it was all a dream Please stop Don't do this to me This isn't how I pictured it to be My first time was suppose to be beautiful With someone I loved Not here in this situation With someone I barely even knew All that was running through my head How could I have been so dumb Its all my fault What have I done As tears ran down my cheeks I shouted out your hurting me Please Just let me be He got up and started to walk away I layed there crying Asking myself how dumb could I be How couldn't I see As I walk in my door My mom asked me where Ive been I said nowhere And walked farther in I opened the door to my room And I walked in My face was full of tears And my head was full of fears I tried to lay in my bed But that whole night Everything was running through my head Replaying over and over I just wish I hadn't even drank Then maybe I wouldn't have gotten raped