Again

So here i am again

Standing on the edge
A million thoughts in my head
I'm out of breath

Here i am again

Confused and broken down
Regretting every ounce of trust
Disgusted with myself

Here i am again

Despair scratching at my heart
Betrayal slapping at my face
Disbelief wrapped around me

Here i am again

I don't understand
I need to fall asleep
And never wake up

Here i am again

Yearning to let go
Hating myself of my flaws
When will i let go?

Here i am again

Wondering why i cannot leave
Killing myself inside
Never will i learn my lesson
I keep swearing to keep my guard up
Keep vowing to never trust again
Abusing myself to keep in line
But i will never learn

For here i am again