Not goodbye, goodnight

Silent tears of pain stain the pages in which I write
The memories of my life with you, now seem so far away
Yet you know not how my heart aches today
Of what could have been, what should never have been, goodnight.

Through my soul your eyes bore through me
Shameless to say there is no holy light
To hold you close, to keep you near, is but a losing fight
For only in my heart do we both dance free

All of my life I have prayed for only you
My friend, my brother, my once laid lover
It is but a sin to whisper, Goodbye, it's all over.
My secrets, my darkest desires, if only you knew

Today brings but the fear of tomorrow
The lonely road I will forever haunt, without your hand in mine
If you were given the chance to save my soul, would you think to turn back time?
I gave you my heart, My Love, to keep, not to borrow

Never will you hear my lips usher that poisonous word, Goodbye.
Every night in my dreams it feels like the first
But to forget all that we once shared is the most fearful sin, the worst
For as I close my eyes at night, again and again, together we both fly