Sweet seductive suicide signs

How many times could you refuse to kiss me and taste my poison?
something so sweet that you
perhaps
could not live without it?

my bloodshot eyes tell of all
the nights Ive cried because of
you.
but I have no more
Ive put them all aside

I know what its like to want to die, how it hurts to smile on the outside, how fitting in is hard
Ive had my try.
cutting to kill the thing on the inside

and as my eyes begin to close
I think of all those days
when all my struggles would overload
but now?

theyre here more often and to stay

please dont try help me out
you have not a glimpse of how I feel
you cant mend my shattered heart
and you cant make my wrists heal

so I will always love you and you can hate me for everything I am.

just think about it
we could be so perfect.

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