Killin Me

My days are in dark despair,
i cannot truly laugh or smile,
my heart is crushed and feels like you don't care,
i feel hurt and cry for quite a long while,
my heart is completely shattered,
i cannot believe our relationship ended like this,
but i guess how i felt never really mattered,
and now that it's over, our relationship is what i miss,
i don't know how all this came about,
i don't see what i did wrong or right,
but all i know is that i want to shout,
because i don't think what you did was right,
i thought so long and hard on whether we should go out,
because i never wanted to ruin our friendship,
i guess love is something you know noting about,
because you left me for another relationship,
i ask God everyday why this had to happen,
because you've changed and are not the same,
i don't know why you changed your mind, or what happened,
but i feel I'm the only one that can be put to blame,
before it happened i was having the time of my life,
my days were filled with thoughts of you,
now all i feel is anger, confusion, and strife,
you have no idea what you did to my view of you,
i still love you with all thats in my heart,
i don't know how much you still love me,
but i don't get why you had to break us apart,
maybe my love for you was not easy enough to see,
i know that you want to put God first,
all you had to do was to tell me to back off,
then you could concentrate on him till you no longer thirst,
but instead you ignored me and blew me off,
it feels like my life is being ripped to shreds,
my dreams of you are waiting at your door,
i don't know what else can be said,
except, i wish there could be more...

RP-2005