I sit here
starting into space
why me, why did i deserved such disgrace
i slid each video of our past
into the vcr
i see our family as one
as happy as can be
but i then i see as i go
farther into the history
that we were never happy
lies laid engraved so deeply
into our souls that nothing was ever right
we were torn apart
each went our ways
and i sit here day after day
wondering why it had to be me
why i had to feel such pain
and why the pain wont stop
tearing me apart from the insides out
each video scars me more
but why can't i turn it off
why can't i stare ahead instead of behind
WHY cant i see the happiness that lies in people instead of their faults
why do i want to be loved
in a way that no human could ever achieve....I NEED ANOTHER EXIT out of this pain i need another way instead of tryin to forget...there has to be another way for me to stay away from the videos that haunt my past, but no there is no way, there will never be another exit...and my mind will sit here torturing me
