What I could have had...but lost

I feel like I love him,
This guy named Chad.
But I just stare from a distance
Watching what I could have had.

I chose to choose another,
And he's now with one too,
That choice I made I only wish,
So badly I could undue.

I wonder if he's happy,
If he's happy now with her,
The past is gettin fuzzy,
It's becoming one big blurr.

But I remember that party,
How I felt with him that night,
His kisses and soft touch
It all just felt so right.

And now he's with this girl,
Who I only wish was me,
But I did once have my chance,
So what remains is jealousy.

I told him how I felt,
Face to face and by e-mail,
But my attempts to win him back,
Over and over again just failed.

For him I know I always will,
Hold a special place within my heart,
Because I realize now...
I should have been with him from the start.