I didnt want to grow old so soon
not so was I intended to learn
of the nether darkness of the waning moon
I have never known such pain
but I know I will
doled out to me in the days form
like new and biting
jagged little pills
it will take this week
in the dazed confusion
of destroyed youth
a shot in the middle of the head with the worlds smallest bullet by a silenced gun in your own house by your best friend looking you in the face
TV prescribes a underwhelmingly competent loook of confusion and surprise before I fall over in a dramatic forray into the ground
down below where my feet once knew there to be solidity
hardwood floors my carefree numbered days
For 12
I gave more than anything I have given anyone
for 5/12
he gave her something more gratifying
come back and rest in my sleeping embrace, in the house I built for us
I implied
Now, implicit understandings undermined by a complete loss of trust
and a complete lack of sanity?humanity? from my other half
rather
everything I had to give
is gone now
and I can\'t get anything back
to give myself a place to lay my troubled head
In my own desprate embrace, In a room alone
