Letter to Heaven..

Sitting here staring in to the what ifs and what could have been.
Find this place so haunting and empty with-out the Cd Skipping
over and over.. No beat for the words I wrote for you in this song.
A perfect Melody being whispered has I tumble into sleep.
Far Far away from here. Hope you Don't mind If I just cry this
one out right. Like the angels told me to do. Let it flow from the trapped
soul behind the bars.

The Day you left I was nothing more then a scared boy looking for this mother
to let wipe the tears from his eyes. To sing to him so tomorrow can come easier to those who prey to the god above. Searching for the answer to the question Why? Never answered it just goes away mommy.. Like a Thief in the night..

Off and On it goes holding it in so long. Visiting the dead while the sleep is a blessing but I wonder if you can hear me since you been gone so long. Not here with me to make all this bad go away. Trying to write to you but i know you won't write back..

I'm growing up faster each day wishing you could just see me now. How proud you would be to see what i have done. The clouds are bright with rain and light. Thou my world is darken by the shadow of the memory's you left me here. There was still so much you had to teach me so much went unfinished.. I'll make sure I finish it for you just hold on tight and watch me from above, Where time sits still and happiness is never to far away..Cause I met someone and When I look at em I can see my heaven....

I wish you could see her i know you would love her just like I do.. Sharing Photographs of me on the floor with my Teddy. Making me sad but never happier cause you remembered each and every morning like it was just the other day.

Not walking with my eyes to the ground..I'm walking with my head rasied high so I can see your face in the clouds and feel your touch in the whisper of the wind.. He gave me everything i need and I just wish I just wish you could see it up close...

I'm growing up so fast now your little boy is fallen and grown in love..So what do you think? I bet your proud..She's amazing and beautiful..Like you said she would be..Told me the story of how you and Grandpa met and said one day a young lady will be happy to have me just i can be a pain in the ass but' she'll love you for you...

I wish you could see how you where right..Just take one breath of my heart listen to my breath and shine in my eyes.. Of a Scared little boy..I'm sending this letter to you..Let it sour and find it's way to you.. I will never forget what you thought me and all the mistakes I made are for a reason..You blessed my ever day with you here..

Going to make you proud and I'll make sure to let her know you said Hi..and Take care of Your Grandson...From the bottom of my heart and all through my body I miss you and You'll never be forgotten like the tears in my eyes....

Tonight before bed I will listen for your sing in the music.. Rest In peace..Now I'll carry on and I'll be there someday.. Teaching what you taught me