Undiscovered pain

Sitting here alone.
rocking myself back and forth.
it hurts so bad.
but still cant let the tears come out.
damaging words she spoke.
to stay forever in my mind.
not realizing that im fading,
fading only in time.
tears rolling down my face.
they finally spilled out,
out into the open.
my feelings ripped out and torn apart.
sitting here, but still no words to speak.
patiently waiting,
but nothing at all.
following your lies, only to lead me to pain.
left to find out that from this point on,
things will never be the same.
still hoping that no one knows.
trying my hardest to hide it all .
fake for you,
only for you.
will you ever know the truth?
it's killing me,
cant you see.
it hurts so bad, but still the tears cant come out