Memories

It hurts to be reminded
Thoughts brought to the fore
Your mind leaves you crying
And shivering on the floor

The world seems ironic
And for this you hate it so
For others learn the things
You wished they'd never know

You just started to deal
Now someone else is hit
With all the pain and suffering
All of the heavy s**t

You wish that you could help
But think back to yourself
Nothing could be done
Now you worry for their health

So now both of you suffer
You pray this is a dream
You hope that they'll recover
Their pain runs out of steam

All the words that come
Don't even come close
To all you wish to say
What you want the most

Yearn to offer comfort
Help them through this patch
Light their way in darkness
Your help, a radiant match

You want to hold them close
Let them cry it out
Let theirs tears and whimpers
Push away their doubt

Your words they seem so empty
As you endlessly repeat
What people always say
"I'm here for you, my sweet"

"I know that nothing helps"
"I know just how you feel"
"I know what you're going through"
"I know, it feels unreal"

You want to find a way
To cradle away their pain
But nothing seems to come
To your useless, worthless brain

Even now i can't explain
Just what it is I want to say
The words hover around my thoughts
I grasp, they float away

You want them to understand
All the lessons that you learned
But you can't convey the knowledge
That your pain has earned

So i fear i must say simply
That which won't help to hear
But it will let them know
That they need not fear

I just want you to know, mon chere
That I am always here
I care for you so much, my darling
I hold you oh so dear

-/-I know this won't help you to know, and that I've said all this before, but i needed to put it down, to try and convey the things i wanted to say. Once again I've failed miserably. Sorry Darling-/-

-/-I'd also like to apologise for the changing rythmn of this poem throughout, just so many things i wanted to say whirling around my head. None of them came out properly tho :|-/-