THE PRESSURE OF BEING HERE *Emily*

Without knowing it i begin to fall
and when i do i fall hard and fast,
isn't that how its meant to be,
well that's how its been in the past,
i hit the earth but my heads in the sky,
i wonder how i let this happen,
or why it happened to me,
oh why?...
until now i have tried to be open,
and reassuring, and happy and proud,
but theres a side of you i don't want to see,
and its coming across so loud,
without you i would be nothing,
still wondering were to begin,
but i have to wonder what would have happened,
if i hadn't had the courage to ring.
i know what happened wasn't ideal,
but its over, theres nothing to fix now,
and i know that you'll never be at peace with that,
always trying to change it somehow.
but the past is the past, and,
that's all that it knows how to be,
aim ahead with your strong eyes,
and please don't worry about me.
it's over now, let it slip to the back of your mind,
like an awfully bad dream,
and slowly and surely as the days go on,
it will become another distant memory.
We know that is hard and we appreciate that,
it would be better well... maybe you should too,
the effort, the sweat, tears and pain,
but at the end of the day the decisions isn't up to you.
so once again I'm sorry, although still proud,
for whatever this means to you,
but always remember how good you are are,
and that once again you are not through.....

for Em well done at Adelaide!