Rest Of My Life

I sit in this room.
the dark shades off to a dark blue.
my tears shed off from my baby blue eyes.
never praying up to the lord up in the sky.
after you left me inside and die.

i sit in this room.
wondering why you left me.
why did you make me do this to myself.
the cuts are gaining and my pain is getting worse.
i said those words but never helped any.

i sit in this room.
writing off my pain.
making the ink run off the paper.
making the stains from the pencils.
drying off my blood on the paper.

i sit in this room.
as i begin to hold the gun.
up high in the air were i was suppose to be.
were I'm going to be as soon as possible.
I'm making a chance to leave this earth.

i sit in this room.
writing a suicidal note.
to everyone i love or i thought.
this is just a lie of a poem.
I'll shot myself now.

i sit in this room.
dead inside my body.
but I'm really moving.
just my insides are dead.
forever and always.
....only the rest of my life....