Real life, how i feel about him....

I HAVE SEARCHED POEMS.... AND I HAVEN'T YET KNOWN ANYBODY WHO FEELS LIKE ME SOOO I'M GONNA TELL YOU WHAT I FEEL ABOUT HIM........................

i cant get over him he is just so sweet to me, he kisses me and gives me his jacket when I'm cold and one time we went to church together he offered to get me something to eat and taught me how to play pool.we played a game together.but you guys don't understand that is how he is.he doesn't like me i know it sounds like he does but i know him too well.
the other day he asked my friend out that is when i supposedly was over him and i was for about 2 weeks but when he asked her out i didn't want anyone else to have him but i really didn't want him and then i realized i really do love him. i would do anything for him but i would not go out with him it sound complicated but i wouldn't go out with him because i love him to much. I'm not afraid of loosing friendship i just don't know what the problem is. i will not go out with anyone because of him and i cant love anyone else and that makes me mad because i really want to love someone else and get over him but i cant do that because i cant get to know anyone else.
we talk on the phone but Ive decided to quit calling him. one time he got hurt bad (car accident)
i cried SO SO much i mean i was balling and i couldn't stop i had no control but this is how i feel and i hope that i can find someone who is like me and talk to them